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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

The first person you think of. Not really. Nothing in my mind. Who to call when you're bored? I'm not so sure. Either way I feel like I'm being lazy doing things. Lethargic, indecisive, pessimistic. Sometimes pondering the different possible situations, and sometimes following my mood. My thoughts are jumbled and messy. Vacuum cleaner.

I actually reached a conclusion. Thinking about my thoughts. Random. Its not just me saying so. Everyday it happens once. It happens. Sometimes I have a train of thought, sometimes I have many different trains going in different directions. I always doubt my use of metaphors. Most of the time they just sound stupid or inappropriate to me. Now my trains seem to move smoother. Is that a good or bad thing? Random inspiration or detailed logic?

Sometimes its a hobby to think. But sometimes I think its just a pitiful excuse for having nothing to do. Sometimes it makes the person feel spiritually deep, using the brain like that. Humans are proud creatures. They love attention, respect, and recognition. Bending themselves to fit social norms so that they are not seen as a freak. But some people like being freaks. They enjoy being different. But they view their differences greater than the rest. Superior strength and superior looks do the same thing. They are just differences in facial features, but there are the better, and there are the worst. The pretty and the ugly. The strong and the weak. The strong and the pretty are more attractive. Why? The human brains are wired to pick out superior qualities in other humans, so that they survive better with them. All of it is down to basic human instinct. Of course there are those habits that are created by civilization. All of them added together forms our latest human beings, who, without being familiar with other human beings, create layers and layers facades, and lists of social norms that restrict conversation and make it awkward. But that's human. Because we live in what we create.

And I continue pouring out my thoughts lol.


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